Thursday, December 8, 2011

On Focus in Change


The following is an assignment I fulfilled for a comparative literature class, as a response to Montaigne's essays. In most of his essays, he seemed to start with simple subjects, and then go on to apply them in a deep way to his own life. There are some, however, that deal with deep subjects throughout. This essay was a last minute product of much procrastination, and sprung forth in about 20 minutes.

            It is an innermost desire for many to grow and become better than they now perceive themselves to be. To sit by and allow life to happen can cause one to feel that he is always victim to his circumstances, and that he is never acting, but only being acted upon. He begins to feel that he cannot change, even while the world around him is constantly in motion. These are negative feelings; naturally, we move to avoid them.
            However, change is uncomfortable. As much as it hurts to sit, it is easy, because it is familiar. So it is with all habits or even addictions; that, while they ultimately decrease our feelings of value and love, they are nonetheless comfortable.
            When the individual has decided that he can no longer remain in his present state, and moves despite the discomfort of it, he begins the task of change. Change, as we know, is not always easy. There is a paradox, which is not often spoken of in scripture or elsewhere, but which is a plague to many, particularly to those who are over-zealous for change. The paradox is this: that to change requires the identification of one aspect of one’s self that must be done away with; and to effectively do away with a well-set-in characteristic, one must consistently focus on it and work at it until it is removed. Yet in the process of focusing on such a characteristic, one serves also to set it in, for it seems universally true that those things which we think about most become part of us.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

When I'm alone

The following is a song written by the band Nevertheless, called When I'm Alone. I think it's about coping with the loss of a loved one. But I've noticed that songs about people we love can often be interpreted as being about one's relationship with God. 
When I hear this song, I think of the person who is "gone" as God; and I don't think it's because He left, but more because we tend to leave Him.
Sometimes, when things are hardest, it seems that He just stands back and lets us struggle. Looking back on struggles, we can see His love and involvement, and how the struggle may have defined us. But in the moment, it feels like being abandoned.
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